Neil · Rodger

my words in no way capture the feel of this but i rarely find it easy to verbalise these small gems of beauty in my head

on more mundane maters saw silent hill to night not bad liked the non typical ending and did you know that there are now atleast eight hellraiser movies eeep

I do find it hard to take every day life seriously in the face of eternity, as this week they say we have an expanding universe.

The song said the future is so bright we are going to need shades not true if this model continues to hold up, we will need light's and lots of them eventually it will be a cold and dark sky everywhere as the big bang continues to cool and dissipate. I wonder if any life will arise then will they be looking back at the bright but long dead milkyway.

i must admit this idea comes from thinking about some scifi i have read in this last couple of years. one was about mankind being stuck in the middle of a war between two ancient civilisations from the bigbang, and a set of short stories about how man might evolve in the distant future. i cant remember the authors name's just now but i will look it up this weekend and post it if it's any help one of them also wrote a book called moonseed

the fun bit will be if we survive that long how would they perceive us what do you think demons or gods

so i am waiting to see what h&r has to say although the general feeling amongst the other staff was that it was both true and funny.

Just in case i am going to look for a fallback job

mind you it would almost be worth it for the look on the managers face when i admitted it, i think he expected me to lie about it but when others have ripped into the same man in front of lots of witnesses using all kinds of language they have been told not to do it in front of people.I feel my crime? was not that bad

Current Location:	Bath [city not water]
Current Mood:	pissed off
Current Music:	jonny cash "When the man comes around"

a old flat mate of mine owns a photography studio in bath his business partner took some shots of me. I just found out they had one of them turned into a post card. how scary is that i could be a souvenir of someones holiday.

you can see the picture on their web site www.paulandpaul.co.uk

my flat mate has just started a akido class in bristol much jealosy i am on a 1pm 9pm shift at the hospital which is great in may ways well not having to get up at 7am is a biggie, it does mean that i cant do much through the week and i have not found a class at the weekend i like the look of.

on another note i want to sugest a film for your entertainment Night Watch a russian supernatural action film. highest takings for a russian film in russia since the colapse of the u.s.s.r . way cool think underworld but made by russians and good the small budget does show occasionaly but it dosn't matter also only watch the cinema version what they did with the subtitles makes this worth watching

I to am not alltogether sure that we will make it my self

i think in the short term getting colonys started off world inside the solar sytem in space or on the moon or other terestrial planets is the vital first step.

i have read about various ways of living in space or on other worlds. My favorite ideas from scifi are the biological solutions modified giant red woods and world rings ( a ring of plant life like the rings of jupiter] from The hyperion Cantos or the bitek constructs from the Reality disfunction series. neither of these is imposible but beyond us at the moment mind you it would be quite cheap to try and grow a tree in orbit just now apart from resuplying it with water it would be intersting to see what happend to it i dont think trees need oxygen to grow?

as for the rest of our galaxy unless physics comes up with some way round light speed it would be realy slow. as a worst case we could always send out protiens and dna and hope some of it lands on something like a promrdial earth admitedly this is a realy long term aproach. or send out libraries full of our knoledge and culture so that there is a chance we will be remembered by something or maybe help others avoid the worst of our mistakes.

thakns to the academy and every one who replied it was great to hear from you all hope you are all well
will email soonish

The world shows us signs everywhere that every 600 million years or so most life on earth is wiped out. So inevitably this will happen again it need not be one big asteroid strike it could just be one to many smaller events tipping the balance.

The only way to protect the species is to spread out initially the solar system and in the long term out in to our galaxy.

unfortunately we seem to be incabable of this kind of planing constantly distracted by ephemeral concerns created by our history and religions, most people seem not to be able to cope with the facts there is no great reason for any of our lives. The universe cannot care about us so we created god this was a trap that keeps us looking back for fixed and easy answers faith means not having to think and not having to have any responsibility for anything it's all gods plan. and if it all goes wrong you have an afterlife to wake up in and continue to have no responsibility's for eternity.

This is rank cowardice

Survival of the species above all by any and all means.

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